The Deep has always loved me

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Within the Silence of life’s living I am resting

quieting all thought

quelling even devotion as singular

weaving within the weft of this great love

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The red tailed hawk still perfect but road killed

the colors of fall

the drifting snow burying the uphill windows

to lit transoms the absolute quiet of white

the starving deer the dogs ran down

in that hardest of winters

the deer’s bones in the morgue of the freezer

until I would bury the bones in Spring

the brush fires I tended that burned hot or low for days

under late snow or Spring rain

the gourds that looked like the swollen bellies of whales

the purge of the creek in spring run off stripping bark

clean from tumbling dead trees

the surprise of the rising waters climbing my calves

the ground saturated to jelly

the path we called Cat Butt turned into a river

the sound wild and competing with returning brown geese

a lightening flash snaking the grounding wire silencing

the music playing inside with a preacher’s thunder

the swath cut through the static of long berry brambles

catching hold and refusing to let go

the oldest grapevine living with the elder pine protecting

each other with their roots suckling water from the bog

the young maples I sang with

as I learned their grove’s language

the low valley road no one wanted to travel that opened

my throat to the sound of a vowel’s reaching

the last call and thumping cry shock wave of each tree

falling as loggers clear cut nearby

the hummingbird sitting in stillness on the tip of the

branchless dead tree each summer’s day at 4

the oceans of colored mushrooms swelling

the deep woods just that one wet season

the bed of lace and leaves tatted by oak’s tannins

where I lay in surrender to soft rain

the purple woman’s hands of black cohosh rising

from wet soil dressed in the mysteries of Spring

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Drawing by Jana White ©

Instagram @ Jana_h_White

Spinning from the silk of our stories


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They tried to bury us. They didn’t know we were seeds.

(Mexican proverb)

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We’ve grown tired of being pinched

by small rusting tacks

holding tight

meant to toughen our skin.

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Plastered like Reels

rapidly scrolling

plastered to eyeballs

stuck in our ears

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Listen, you old schemers

We’re not looking for saviors

nor suckling your messengers

pedaling the news

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We seek grounding instead

in the wild fecund darkness

deeply cocooned

in our memories unbound

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Listening to choirs

of Winged Ones spinning

from the silk

of our stories now loosened

and taking flight from the sound.

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“To go in the dark with a light is to know the light. To know the dark, go dark. Go without sight, and find that the dark, too, blooms and sings, and is traveled by dark feet and dark wings”     ….. Wendell Berry

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Painting © by Jana White

Instagram @ Jana_H_White

The Nimbleness of Intelligence

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The nimbleness of intelligence

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How many times

will I shed raw and return?

Or is it a stronger current

amorphously assembling and deconstructing

in circuitous layers of attendance

as I unwittingly rally

behind the porosity of my tumbling thoughts,

the seduction of the “certainty” of knowledge?

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I am a small planet

a symbiotic microbial world

my mind’s peripheral orbit though

has flung so far out

in its trajectory that now

my axis seems nearly invisible

but I can still feel it…

this bright nucleus of love

teeming with life

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Tepid fleshed, soft and juicy

I navigate through

this microbial stew

with winged thoughts

a heart that prisms lightning

and opposable dancing thumbs

tingling with the emotive tracings

of “new” frontiers

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While underground

the nimbleness of intelligence

arises in quietude

fervent, listening

patiently listening

for openings of emergent steam

clear signs of the heat of engagement

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I look “out there” from inside this swarming warmth

positioning myself in the spaces in between

so practiced in resistance to the consistent hum of patterns and static

The quietude continues to rise from its circuitous path

through the soles of my feet

rising to the opening in my sky when I hear

In here! In here!

Not out there!

We’re right here!

We’re all right here

Playing in the fields of wild light”

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Image © by Jana White

Instagram @ Jana_H_White

In my house of open windows

SallyMann

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“…. for a conditioned love loses its infinity, and in losing its infinity love is no longer love. In short, the highest expression of love as found in Hafiz’s poetry – is for love to create another perfect in its composition, without any bounds or conditions, infinite and completely, eternally free.”

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her waist

that God

created out

of nothing

is so slender

none created

can embrace it

In response ….

In my house of open windows

When you enter the garden

and sing to me of your sorrows

in harmony with the songs

of the night birds

I weave each sorrowful note

into a carpet of prayer

for us to lie on

praising

our Beloved

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Photo: “Deep South” by Sally Mann

Translation of Hafiz by Peter Booth

“Dante/Hafiz Readings on the Sigh, the Gaze, and Beauty” by

Franco Masciandaro and Peter Booth

Slow Infestation

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He was a wolf …

a solitary wolf culled from the pack

expertly herding his words

through her undulate terrain.

She welcomed the seduction

amply savoring his patois.

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Beguiled by his seeming intimacy

she failed to assimilate the slow infestation

of his oblique aural patternings

insinuating edgy consonants

and limbic vowel howls.

It was her stomach at first that resisted the enchantment

with small flutterings of continual distress.

Slowly she became aware

that his words were predictable

acid but effervescent

lying tips of tongues

corroding her silence.

They dangled from her

like wind chimes with little meaning

Their fractured light cascading

from her now weary ears

pummeling the surface.

So she gathered herself

and sent him,

and his errant words,

away

Though at times she could still hear their echoing…

The scent of him having so easily

permeated her skin.

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To ward off this sonic residue

she bathed daily in lovage root and vervain

and made a tincture of his words,

a verbal potion dissolved in fine brandy

She took one dose timed exactly

as the cusp of the horizon split day into night

Delicately,

Three drops under her tongue,

with a twist…

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I had fun with this one. Looking over older work I saw a story weaving between a few different poems and so I threaded a needle and sewed them together. The drawing is an old one too. Newer than the poems, it is cut from the same cloth.

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PoePoem and drawing: jana h white                 Drawing: Pastels on black paper

The Scent of Me

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Dark, my scent the smoke of wood fungus

Hidden, my intimate flesh the sugared amber sap of trees

Returning, my under arms the rotting nurture of fallen leaves

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The fertile air tentacles

leaving traces

of spores and maple and mold.

Some leave quickly and some take hold.

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Poem and painting … j.h.white.

Pencil Noir #9

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The city’s crows peck and skewer carrion

selectively choosing between the perennial litter

left sodden and desultory in the winter rains.

I watch their darker shapes swoop about

on mite plagued wings

Curious and feisty feet hopping

through bony limbed trees.

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I’d like to think we share

a similar response to the litter,

to this common visual insult,

despite our differences

of foot or beak or choice of cuisine.

They caw at me as I toe debris to the street,

summer’s occasional litter bagging I tell myself

improbable now in the drenched and cold.

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Above me their black wings

posture and flex in raucous recognition.

I know they’re looking at me.

They’re intelligent birds

They own this side of the street

They recognize faces…

Startled I wonder what they see in mine?

Is there a password for this?

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pencil sketch: j.h.white

Microbial fantasia #2

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fantasia #2_2

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Grazing

our lips meet

in wild fields

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 Before sailing

into

 a jungle

of beastly

delight

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“Passions that quicken your senses, fulfill; quench the thirst of lonesome years! Yet the sun has shadows, learn to control your will; to enjoy life long happiness, not tears! Wait! Rise to the stars above & thrill! Arouse the very flames of life! Sweetheart, kiss me: Hold still, hold still!”….. Excerpt from Dr Bronner’s original rant.

Dr. Bronner’s Magic Soaphttp://www.subgenius.com/updates/5-99news/X0007_BRONNER.txt.html

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“The human microbiome (or human microbiota) is the aggregate of microorganisms, a microbiome that resides on the surface and in deep layers of skin, in the saliva and oral mucosa, in the conjunctiva, and in the gastrointestinal tracts. They include bacteria, fungi, and archaea. One study indicated they outnumber human cells 10 to 1.”

Human microbiome …. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Human_microbiome

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Drawing and poem … j h white

 

Pencil noir #5

ebola workers~

I want to understand my part is in this tragedy. I see these images every day…..the white suits, the latrine green or bubblegum pink plastic gloves.

I stare at the photo from NBC World News.  I’d googled face masks worn in epidemics after listening to an NPR broadcast about the Liberian aide workers who have taken the job of bringing in the dead. How does one comprehend such a thing?

I decided to draw one of the photos…to find the spaces between the forms…to make this intimate in some way. It becomes a meditation as I concentrate on the crisp plastic suits, the individual postures of the men, the dark slits behind the masks. I breath in, paying attention to the act of drawing what I see.

I breath out. I begin to feel I am breathing for the aide workers who are praying that they remain protected within those suits.

I breath in. I breath out. I feel as if I am breathing now for the ones in the bags. The ones who are no longer breathing. I breath to ease their passage in death. I breath for the loved ones, the children left behind. I keep breathing and concentrating.

I begin mixing the colors for the gloves. Zinc white, phthalo turquoise, a little Jenkins green. I’m almost finished. While applying the paint to the gloves, however,  I am overcome. I watch as all my own sorrows rise to the surface. I realize now that sorrow is simply sorrow.  I am unable to separate one sorrow from another.

But through this experience I have learned one personal way to be with what is happening in the world I live in and am a part of. Each moment as I breath in, as I breath out, life presents itself.  This becomes my prayer….my quiet revolution.

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Here is the link to the NPR (National Public Radio) episode. It’s one of the more human articles and well worth a look.

http://www.npr.org/blogs/goatsandsoda/2014/08/28/343479917/they-are-the-body-collectors-a-perilous-job-in-the-time-of-ebola

 

Before dawn

I’m pedaling

slowly

It’s a down time

face up floating

a sea of heart’s desire

directed,

as night caresses

and dreams open like books

dissolving their meaning

no longer rigid

 rising to the surface

for light and air

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Now deep in the hum of an extended writing project, I miss the relationship with my WordPress community. I wondered if I could keep up both directions in expression….the immediacy of day by day reflections and the task of organizing a larger body of work into a cohesive whole.

Still opening to deeper insight in the stillness of the night, nowadays after hours of the chaos of creative effort, I’ve decided to re-post some of the earlier poems, unedited. For me they are like talking with an old friend….calming, encouraging. Where am I today with these thoughts? Do they surface now with new meaning? I treasure the comments made and the friendships that have been nurtured with these seeds that were sown in this fertile ground.