The Deep has always loved me

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Within the Silence of life’s living I am resting

quieting all thought

quelling even devotion as singular

weaving within the weft of this great love

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The red tailed hawk still perfect but road killed

the colors of fall

the drifting snow burying the uphill windows

to lit transoms the absolute quiet of white

the starving deer the dogs ran down

in that hardest of winters

the deer’s bones in the morgue of the freezer

until I would bury the bones in Spring

the brush fires I tended that burned hot or low for days

under late snow or Spring rain

the gourds that looked like the swollen bellies of whales

the purge of the creek in spring run off stripping bark

clean from tumbling dead trees

the surprise of the rising waters climbing my calves

the ground saturated to jelly

the path we called Cat Butt turned into a river

the sound wild and competing with returning brown geese

a lightening flash snaking the grounding wire silencing

the music playing inside with a preacher’s thunder

the swath cut through the static of long berry brambles

catching hold and refusing to let go

the oldest grapevine living with the elder pine protecting

each other with their roots suckling water from the bog

the young maples I sang with

as I learned their grove’s language

the low valley road no one wanted to travel that opened

my throat to the sound of a vowel’s reaching

the last call and thumping cry shock wave of each tree

falling as loggers clear cut nearby

the hummingbird sitting in stillness on the tip of the

branchless dead tree each summer’s day at 4

the oceans of colored mushrooms swelling

the deep woods just that one wet season

the bed of lace and leaves tatted by oak’s tannins

where I lay in surrender to soft rain

the purple woman’s hands of black cohosh rising

from wet soil dressed in the mysteries of Spring

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Drawing by Jana White ©

Instagram @ Jana_h_White

The Aquifer and the Wheel

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The Aquifer…

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The Wheel…

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“At the still point of the turning world. Neither flesh nor fleshless;

Neither from nor towards; at the still point, there the dance is,

But neither arrest nor movement. And do not call it fixity,

Where past and future are gathered. Neither movement from nor towards,

Neither ascent nor decline. Except for the point, the still point,

There would be no dance, and there is only the dance.

I can only say, there we have been; but I can not say where.

I can only say, how long, for that is to place it in time.”

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Excerpt from BURNT NORTON

{No.1 of “Four Quartets”  by T.S. Eliot

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Paintings © Jana White

Instagram @ Jana_h_White

 

 

Perfect Landing

I step lightly between the landing of the animus

The muse that comes lifting honey from the hives

Pollinating words penetrating through veils

Boundaries permeable by light

Still feeling the sinew and bones of intention

Smiling around dark corners

Unabashed!

 



Painting and journal entry © Jana White

Instagram @ Jana_H_White

Fragile

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Fragile like smog shadows rifling valleys

the mountain holds its breath

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Fragile like feverish water

the ocean aborts the moon’s children

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Fragile like bees losing direction

and stamens playing their last hands

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Fragile like children born overwhelmed

by viruses perplexed

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Fragile still

like a flower

self-sewing in the garden

in blooming will make no mistakes

Intelligence in its unfolding

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“The Sky is falling. The sky is falling”

Painting and poem by Jana White

Instagram @jana_h_white

osmosis

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thought hovers

is this thought mine?

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I watch the few words

just there

I look askance to see if they move

do they move of their own volition?

no

they hover

simultaneously

we’re moving through walls

what does this mean?

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I once could hear through walls

I’d lost my skin

rendered immobile

I heard nuclear indifference

red lights green lights

flying metal and a dying jesus

I wet myself

although the bed stayed dry

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I looked for what was left

at the time

I was empty

much later I understood

this was the right place to start

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it takes awhile

starting from nothing

to un-know everything

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we hover

not knowing

we move through walls

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    Acrylic on paper….j. h. white

Lumens

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The push the pull the moon’s sculpting hands

Its broad face spilling transparent

over lunar mountains

Full bright

but veiled by cloud’s chattering

Obscured

yet still felt in the marrow

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With a tactile sensing

for the peaks and dark hollows

My blood its own compass

I map the edge of the sea

as the tide recedes

filling the carved pools as it leaves

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The clouds drift away in their own mystery

as the moon glides free

in luminous ascending

and I sway as a puppet in a shadow play

bathed in luminous manna

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Pencil sketch and poetry: j.h.white

note: a photo attributed to Joshua Black Wilkins was the inspiration for the sketch. ( I was unable to verify the source however)